I’ve never been one to make New Year’s resolutions. Think I’d break them sooner than make them. Nonetheless, the new year is a great time as the clock gets reset to look back at the year that was, take stock of inventory, and project your direction on the year that will be.
2019 was a great year with a solid running year with 2/3 great results , a rehabilitated back, and a healthy family with Sam not having a relapse from his rare disease. All together an excellent 365!
Many great people have come into my life this year including my Sports Psychologist, Marek Komar with Flow Performance in November. We have been working diligently unpacking many dusty boxes but recently have focused on managing my internal chatter. My prior method was simple, it was to deflect attention away from the toxic voices and messages as they appeared and replace them with inspirational, driven, and positive ones. Anyone who has listened to my video chat with Personal Peak about my four animals (link to PP video here) knows what I’m talking about. I have to say, my distraction method has work well to date but I want to know if by trying a new method, will my knife be sharper.
Marek wants me to sit with my negative voices. I think he said “Dave, I want you to invite your negative thoughts out for tea”. First thing, that doesn’t sound like a lot of fun. Second, I think those negative voices when deep in my well are my self limiters that have not been addressed my whole life. My fear is after sitting with them, dusting them off, and hearing them out, they might be true and they might limit me further. Or, maybe I’m just scared about the stabbing pain that hearing my most honest critic might stir up. Either way, lord hates a coward and in order to grow one must be willing to suffer.
One question I’m looking forward to asking those negative voices is to show me empirical evidence that this is true. The TransCanada highway is long and I’m sure I’ll deal daily with managing the multitude discussions of negative self talk.
So my “resolution” leading into this big year is simple, hear my Downer Dave out. Cuz I’d rather invite him out for tea now than be forced to shoot whiskey with him later.